Friday, October 26, 2007

New Program to Help

Well, for a couple of weeks or longer, another gal at church and I have talked about getting some women together for a Bible study on Weight Loss and Body Image. It was something that was on her heart towards the body image side and on my heart on the weight loss side. So we spent some time looking and found something that we think will be nice and are going to try.

The program is called First Place, and it has weight loss componant, which I ordered but you can do the study without that if you want, and then a Bible Study componant, which the other gals are ordering. We are meeting on Sunday evenings while our kids are in youth group and doing the study and then walking.

I am looking forward to my books, and I will share my thoughts and feelings and what happens.

Friday, October 5, 2007

Friday October 5th - Starting Over

Well....here it is, starting over. The beginning of my new attempt at this weight loss journey.

Good thing about blogs is that I can go ahead and post my morning thoughts and feelings and breakfast, and then later add to them after lunch and dinner, instead of having to wait and make one hugh post after the day is done. It makes it easier on me and more likely that I will continue to post and keep myself accountable for what I am eating and doing and feeling.

Breakfast:
1 12oz can of Diet Big Red (have to get my morning caffeine in, and I am not a coffee drinker)
1 6oz cup of mixed berry yogurt (Yoplait Light Thick and Creamy w/Splenda) - 100 calories
1 tsp flax seed -mixed into my yogurt

It's going to be a rough day. I have billing to get into the mail today at work, and then my middle child work up without a voice and coughing again this morning, so I called the dr's office and because of the type of cough she is having they want to see her, and the only appointment was at 11:30 (the dr is out all afternoon), so I have to take my lunch hour, run out to school, pick her up and take her to the dr....fun! Hoping this goes okay.

The weight on the ticker at the top of the blog has been corrected and shows where I am currently and where I want to get to, but the goal is so far ahead of me that I feel like I may never get there! It is one of the things that have probably made it hard for me, is that there is so much that I really do need to lose, but with three kids I want to be here for them and to see them grow and I know that this weight is not healthy for me. Which reminds me that I need to check in with the dr's office on me and see about my bloodwork. They did bloodwork on 9/18 and I haven't heard from them so I need to see what they thought and what I need to be doing in regards to that.

Thursday, October 4, 2007

Thought for the Day, October 4th

So many of us live with depression and accept it without even realizing it. The good news is that God doesn't want us to live with these feelings. He wants us to have the joy of the Lord rise in us and chase away spirits of heaviness. God wants us to cry out to Him so He can lift us out of depression.

Depart from me, all you workers if iniquity; for the lord has heard the voice of my weeping. The Lord has heard my supplication; the Lord will receive my prayer.
Psalm 6:8-9

After posting that I wanted to get back into this, and my struggle with weight being tied to my depression and the cycle is causes, I flip my calander and find this is my thought for the day!
The Lord provides in the most mysterious ways!! Here I was just complaining about the depression only to be reminded that God is able and willing to make it all go away, IF I will turn to him. If I will lay it out into his hands, turn it over to him and let him have control he will take care of me and provide me a way out of the depression and the cycle that I am in!
Oh it is so much easier to say (write in this case) than to actually do. To turn it all over to God implies in this world that i am lacking, that I can't do for myself, I am not good enough...but that is not the case at all. God is my heavenly Father and he wants nothing more than to give me everything good and perfect if I will only follow Him and allow Him to lead me. If I really want to lose the weight and stop fighting the depression all I have to do is let Him have it, he can take care of it! Oh the relief to turn it over to God!!

Ending September

How hard is this journey?

Well, seeing as I haven't really posted anything here since July, extermely hard!

My weight feeds my cycle of depression. I don't like the way I look, I try to diet, but progress is very slow or non-exsistant, so i get depressed and eat, which just makes me dislike the way I look more which leads me to a lower pit i nthe depression well, and on and on and on, the more depressed, the more I eat, the more I eat the more I dislike myself!

I am so tired of it! I am going to make another effort at it, and I am getting my dieting devotionals out again, and really reading and studying them, and this time i am going to be honest with myself and my family and friends about how much i really need to lose, and enlist their help and not try to do this on my own again. It doesn't work.

Life is hectic with three kids, between cub scouts, girl scouts and football we are running all the time, but i am putting this in the front for me, and so I hope to be here daily with thoughts and inspiration for you as well as for me! This blog is like my journal, and it will help to hold me accountable to what I do an don't do on this journey, at least that is they way I intend it to go.